we need to talk about sex.

The temperature in my apartment and in my sheets is making me really miss our weekends here and sleeping next to each other.

And the tom cruise scary alien movie is at RU this weekend and I liked watching that with you and squeezing off your hand for 2 hours.

Didn't make it to laundry. I thought what I needed to do in ceramics would take 2-3 hours, but due to the rain nothing was as dry was I needed it to be, so it took forever to work with the clay. I ended up staying there from 5 to 9:50. I formed 4 sushi plates and added stuff to a wall hanging piece I'm doing that will have removable tiles that'll say "MCKAY". I have a critique Tuesday and what I worked on tonight is going to require touch-ups that have to be this weekend (before they get too dry.)

So.. this weekend would be a bad time for me to go to NVA, so that's not going to happen. Plus, I need to be there Friday until the end -it's my second to last Friday there and I don't want to have her feeling like I'm taking advantage of her... plus, since I didn't tonight and I have that dinner tomorrow, I can't do laundry until this weekend, I need to go to grocery shopping especially at the farmers market, AND YOU need to be ready for interviews anyway and your parents are coming home. So, maybe another time. I hope you'll postpone suit shopping, I'd like to sit and watch you come out in suits. I liked going to GAP with you and going in the stall with you, that was hot. I was tempted to grab you and make out with you.

Been on my feet basically since 8am. I am exhausted and I've eaten almost nothing today. Goodnight!

My item is due to be shipped on the 5th, which is almost tomorrow.
I'm tempted to make plans to drive to see you this weekend, but I can't afford it right now and it doesn't really make sense since it'd be so short.

I took a nap when you went to bed, so I could go to ceramics from 8 until late. I left around 10:30. I made the example ceramic house for the girl scout thing. I have about 26 pieces for the critique tomorrow: 13 leaves for the wind chime complete with veins, 4 sushi plates that are a little larger than the ones I have now, 3 plates, 4 bowls, a birdhouse, a face, and drawing like thing of ballet slippers for Robin.

I keep thinking about how you think I'm good with computers, since you're so amazing with computers, that makes me feel really good.

A tuna casserole is cooking.

I've got a donation pile, a Robin pile, and a trash pile of a small portion of my stuff. I'm trying to downsize, maybe, aside from my furniture I'll put all my stuff in one car load.

Hope you slept well.
I watched more sex in the city, watching it makes me want to dress interestingly and go on dates and get lots of sex.

i tried calling u, then went home at 12:30 to talk to u a while before you went to bed for the day. oh well.

I don't know if we work together well enough.

Just spent a few hours looking over a lot of websites trying to decide whether or not to apply at other graduate schools. Part of the appeal to another school, in Boston or NYC would be more independence. Life in Radford is so effortless I can't really call living at this apartment exploring true independence. I'm too close to everything here, family support and stuff. If I went to NYC or Boston or CA or somewhere far away and city-like, maybe UFlorida, then I could start meeting more people and get a nice social life. And I can study something I'm interested in, ESL or Art edu? But, I'm not willing to pay $50,000 for a Masters (living expenses and tuition). I have a weird need right now that I want to live with familiarity again. I'm afraid to move far away. It sounds romantic to move far away. The idea I've had is I can live with my parents, substitute teach, go to evening classes, maybe waitress on the weekends, use financial aid to pay for my first graduate semester, and try to save up for every other semester so I only go about $6,000 in debt total (including the 3,000 from my undergrad). And after the first semester of substitute teaching, I assume my teaching license and experience with the county will encourage them to give me long term substitute teaching or an art edu job in Stafford or Spotsylvania County. I'd continue to live at home, save much of my money and use it to pay for graduate school and to travel and to decide where I want to move to permanently, get a job there, have money saved, and be comfortable.

I really don't think where I get a masters degree will matter when I'm getting interviewed. I'm not going to apply anywhere else and it won't be a big deal if I don't get into UMW. ESL is a backup in case the government ends public school art education or if I need to leave the US I'll have certification to teach English abroad.

i had bd dreams about tornados. I had trouble waking up, I didn't go to the gym, I almost set my alarm for 7:05, which would have been problematic. So, I'll be going to sleep by 9:30 from now on.

A piece of a goldfish fell into my bellybutton, I almost rolled over to let it just fall out, but I started to think it could get eaten by the bugs in there or get stuck and I had to touch it out.

Dad said he didn't mail out invitations yet, he's waiting to print the Outback invitations. I think it's really nice of your parents to come, it'll be nice for them to finally meet, and though not a happy occasion, it will be a good meeting because there will be so many people there -- it will be brief.

Hope it went well getting your grandparents and dad.